From (God bless you Lynn!!!) The Sacred Romance: Drawing Closer to the Heart of God

Quote from the book:

We listen and we are aware of … a sigh. And under the sigh is something dangerous, something that feels adulterous and disloyal to the religion we are serving. We sense a passion deep within that threatens a total disregard for the program we are living; it feels reckless, wild. Unsettled, we turn and walk quickly away, like a woman who feels more that she wants to when her eyes meet those of a man not her husband. ... Something calls to us through [suffering] and rouses an inconsolable longing deep within our heart, wakening in us a yearning for intimacy, beauty,and adventure. ... Discover your soul's deepest longing and ... embrace it as the most important part of your life.

My response:

Abba – Jesus – Holy Spirit –

Please embolden and empower me to embrace the longing  –  the vortex of hunger, need, and despair. It is only homesickness. Help me to fall into it and get lost in the freefall. For there I now know I will find Your arms, Your love, and Your heart – and my own.

I have been trying in my own self-effort to stop or control the hunger in order to stop overeating. This is exactly backwards!!! I need to glut myself on the black hole of need – hurl myself, abandon myself into the consumption of it. Throw every hindrance aside and pig out on God.